Well, I wouldn't know what's up with school because I haven't been there for a whole week, as some
of you may have cared to have noticed OR overlooked.
If anyone really cares, it turns out the doctor said I was developing Brnochitis. Bronchitis
is a disease that deals with the lungs become flooded with excessive mucus that is produced by the Brochi tree
in the chest. I know, it sounds disgusting, but that is what is it. The symptons are flu-like, and if untreated,
may lead to pneumonia which may in turn lead to death. Hmmm, I'm glad I got that taken care of.
Daytime televisions programming was not made in mind for sick 16 year old kids who stay home.
It was made for housewives and gay men who stay home to watch Laura fall in love with John who is really in love with Lisa,
but Lisa's married to Alex, and the couple has a kid named Ricky who has a fatal disease and is supposed to die, but somehow
he pulls through, and it turns out his dad isn't alex but it's Daniel, some guy who is openly gay. Wow, interesting huh?
Not really...
If only you could take steps backwards, wow, that'd be awesome. Just imagine being able to
take back certain things you did or things you said. But honestly, what hurts more; saying SOMETHING
and wishing you HADN'T, or saying NOTHING and wishing you HAD?
What if you just can't find it withing yourself to say that something that you want to say?
What if you are completely sure what's gonna happen, what consequences and reactions your words are gonna have? Is it
really worth the effort just to be shut down one more time, so you can tell yourself, yeah, I knew that was gonna happen?
I really don't know what to say, one half tells me, hell yes, because what if the opposite happens, and you get suprised.
The other half tells me that if you're absolutely SURE of it, then forget about it. I really dont know
which half to listen to.
All these sad songs about girls and failed relationships or relationships that never were always
seem to say "move on and forget." Okay, YAY, that's really really good advice that you need to hear at that time, but
what happens when you do move on? The song never mentions what happens when that relationship doesn't work either, or,
it never even becomes, just like the first one. You're left listening to the same song again, because you realize this
cycle you're in is never ending, and that happiness, in reality, is just the first step towards rejection which leads to sadness
which eventually leads to happiness. At least for me it is...
Mood: Sad...but HEALTHY
Music: Nickelback-Someday
