What the fuck? Oh well, so, I just got back from the first game, interesting to be quite honest.
I don't know, something has been bugging me over and over, and it just comes and goes as it pleases. I wish that my
year was still going as good as it was when the year barely started. Stupid crap, pisses me off!!
Well, let's see...the game went alright, we did good for it being our first performance. We
kinda got bitched at afterwards, but nothing too bad, just the normal "focus" speech and how we gotta get ready to work this
next week.
There's stuff that I wanna put down, but yet, I find myself not putting it down, because...actually,
I don't really know why. I guess it's just hard for me to deal with the fact that there are certain things which I just
can't have, no matter how hard I try, or how much I think I need this...that doens't matter at all. Stupid and selfish
me to try and think I could have whatever I wanted when I needed it, that's just how things work out in the end I guess.
The only thing is that I have very sudden and frequent mood swings when I'm around certain people.
They just make me act differently that others would, and I don't know if that's good or bad. I guess it just depends
on who the person is and how the make ME act! But oh well, this shit sucks balls...I really wish I wouldn't think as
much as I do, it makes me realize reality saddly enough.
Mood: Depressed
Music: Unwritten Law-Seein' Red
