Eh man, it has been such a long time since I sat here at my computer and actually updated like this.
Last time, I was upset, happy, sad, every emotion was running through me. I said some stuff I kinda regret saying, but oh
well, what's done is done, and I'm here sadder than ever.
Eh what to write, I sit here wondering if anyone actually cares about anything anymore. I've had
two obsolete accomplishments this past week. Joey and I got sweepstakes on our science project, and I got second place
on my FBLA Economics test. So yay, the kid thats over there in the corner hurting (me) is smart to some people...
Man, so close, almost there, yet so far away, makes it hurt more than having never had a chance.
I wonder all the time if she cares at all about how I feel, I mean I'd like to think she doesn't want me to be sad like
this, but then I remember, she knows what would make me feel better. Basically what I did, was give her my heart, or
the remnants of it, and she took them, destroyed them, and now I have nothing. I know that's really really steep and
um, like, I don't know how to explain it, but if you get it, ok, if not, I'll ask and explain. AHH, the phrase, I know I may
be getting carried away, but that's how I feel.
I still care, even though I tell myself not to. Does she care that I still do? Will she
ever feel the same way again? I don't know, and even though I wish I didn't, I do care.
Why can't I ever be happy? Is there a law out there that forbids me of being happy?
Just for once, I'd like to be able to not comtemplate about how things never go my way. I'm down the deepest I've ever
been, and I'm all alone...
Mood: Sad, down, ehhh...BLAH
Music: Story Of The Year-Until The Day I Die
